Holy crap, right?? I'm in a group of 7 of us who are playing it on the clarinet studio recital...So. Freaking. Excited.
And now, to my latest brain spew. Nothing politically-charged this time, promise. Just a lot of tired, possibly incoherent feelings.
In my recent abundance of alone time, I've really had the chance to think about something I don't think about as often as I should.
Being by myself so much makes me think how truly great it is to have people in my life who care. I have no idea where I would be if it weren't for my friends and family always bringing me back to reality when I need it. I can't even express how happy I am to be surrounded by the people I know. I mean, look at my mom and dad...yeah, I'm having one of those epiphany moments when I realize how great they really are. I think it was sparked when before break, I was all ready to sign the lease on a house for next year, my first house away from home, and I had no idea how I would pay for the security deposit. I felt bad asking them to help pay for it, being unsure of the current money situation, but they made it work. Looking back at when that happened, I've realized how truly lucky I am to have parents who support me in whatever I do. Not just when I need money, I mean hell no, they're there for all of it. When I need a hug, when I'm being a little shit, when I put the clean laundry on top of the dryer and forget to fold it, when I'm playing a concert in a faraway place at an inconvenient time, when we all sit down in the living room and watch Netflix together, all the little things like that. And the big ones, too. They find ways to make things work, even if the solution is ridiculous. They trust me, and they've stuck it out with me through all the second chances. They give me their best, even when I don't always reciprocate it. I love them, and I'm one lucky little turd.
The same things could also be said about all the other people I care about. Believe me...I'm thankful for all of you, even though I may not always be the best at showing it. Everyone I know is in my life for a reason, and while I may not get along with everyone, I still love knowing who I know and having the friends I have. So, here's to a new outlook on life, a better semester, and an all-around better time :)
Sorry to be all weepy all of a sudden, my emotions are all in a traffic jam in my head, fighting one another to get out, and the only one prevailing is sappiness. I'm having a moment...deal with it.
K, now I really need to go to bed...
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