No matter how many times I listen to this song, I think the same thing every time. I don't want to ever grow old.
As I reflect on today, while the weather turns shitty and mother nature continues to be confused, here's my most recent poetry brainpuke...
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What do you do when nothing in your life makes sense?
Do you sit and think, why do I do anything I do?
When it's do or die, do you do and then die a little inside?
Do you come roaring back to life or crawling?
Where do you go when you're going mad from contemplation?
Do you contemplate going nowhere?
Why do we go anywhere?
Do we really know where we're going at all?
Who knows what we're even supposed to be?
Do I have a purpose, or do I still have a lot of soul searching to do?
How can I live without aging, die without fading away?
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I know growing old happens to everyone..it's inevitable. We all age, physically, mentally, and emotionally. Things like heartbreak, stress, difficult choices, laughter, empathy, conflict, and joy, leave their marks on our bodies and souls.
As excited as I am for the future, hopefully becoming an accomplished musician, the wisdom I will no doubt acquire with time...Is it too much to ask for as much time as possible to enjoy my youth? Being surrounded by friends and what little familiarity I can hold on to?
Chew on that for a while...
