For some reason, listening to 90's Britney always cheers me up...huh.
So! As always, a lot has happened since last post. Sorry.
*Life Updates*
So the year started out with a bang. Not gonna lie, I partied quite a bit the first few weeks...eh.
Classes started, and they were mostly alright - AT and Sightsinging, I can tell, are going to be a waste of time this year. Testing out of them...yay! Also, I dropped my World Geography class, because I can't take a non-stop Tuesday/Thursday.
I'm working a lot, or at least it feels like a lot. My dining center job is alright, despite the constant nasty of the dishroom. People are alright, despite the occasional butt who tries to act like a supervisor and tell people what to do...but you'll always have those I guess. The one thing that frustrates me most? All the money I earn from now on, literally all of it, is either going towards Italy, car payments, or my U-Bill. No more room for fun...growing up sucks.
On a better note, the freshmen in the clarinet studio all seem like really awesome people! There are 6, and they're all unique...and 4 of them have started a quartet not unlike our own. It's precious :)
I can only hope they won't be scared away!!
Next on the 8:00 news: my world has become a fine frenzy, a big pile of confusing, the very epitome of a hot mess.
I've started to realize that isn't always a good thing. I mean, of course I believe in honesty and all that, but I also feel like there's a point when someone can be too honest. Know what I mean?
Well, it's more like when someone reveals too much about themself. Yeah, the whole "TMI" concept never really bothered me as much as it is right now...
I feel like I've revealed so much about myself that I've become predictable, like a mediocre TV series. I've dug myself into an uncomfortable hole - it's time to climb out.
Also...
Just like there's a fine line between honesty and indecent exposure, I am suddenly more aware than I've ever been of the difference between a friend and a therapist.
This year already feels so much different from last year - new living situation, new major, new classes, and new people thrown in the mix. Not to mention, I've got the dilemma of my life...yk that feeling you get when you just can't seem to get over someone? Yeah. I've got it bad. And it's really complicated. Gohhhh.
I seem to have difficulty adjusting to change; I always adjust, but it takes a while. And hohohohohhhhhh is it taking a while this time.
So I'm sorry if I've been a total ass lately. I'm not trying to excuse myself of anything, oh no...I know I can be a stubborn bitch, and I know I do shit that pisses people off. I know I'm spacey, and profane, and sometimes lazy or crude. I know I've cried wolf before, claiming to be ready to make nice and change my ways...so I don't expect anyone to believe me this time. Which is unfortunate, because I finally believe myself.
I'll take more classes next semester if it kills me. I'll go to bed at 11:30, get up early to practice, do anything it takes. Like I said, growing up sucks...but it has to happen sometime.
