*UPDATE*
SO, after several things being brought to my attention, I've decided to revise my post to include MORE things that have happened to me, which I had mistakenly left out before...
Kenzie and Carly came to visit!
I neglected to mention the fact that even though Kenzie lives in Omaha now, and Carly lives in Indianola, I got to see both of them last week during their fall breaks. Even though I may not have said anything before, I was VERY excited to see both of them and super stoked to have them here!! I know I'll probably be called a jerk several times now...don't hate, celebrate. Looooove youuuuuuu :]]
The Legend is forever.
Scott...just because I don't explicitly mention you doesn't mean I'm not thinking every second about your glory. I'm surprised at you, sir...you should know by now you have a special brotherly place in my heart :)
*ORIGINAL POST*
Things I've realized lately...(or things that have become clearer than ever lately)
People change.
Clearly. But it can be hard to accept. Things happen - we try something new and make it a part of our lives, we meet someone new, etc. It isn't always easy to get used to something when we've just gotten used to another thing. Frankly, it sucks sometimes; but the thing I've had to remind myself of lately is that no matter how dire things seem in a friendship, you've got to keep at it. Swim on, little fishie...that current won't beat down on you forever.
There's always a light at the end of the tunnel.
Being the sensitive butt that I am, I fully understand that I feel emotions quite extravagantly. As of late, however, I've started to think, "Is it really as big a deal as I'm making it?" My ability to brush things off is improving, although there are still demons I have to face. Sacrifices will have to be made, but I've got to do it. If I'm to get anywhere in the world, especially in the career field I've picked, I've got to suck it up.
That's all I've got for those.
And now, the good part!
Seeing as it's been weeks since I've blogged, here are all the happenings you've missed.
So I entered the UNI Instrumental Concerto Competition. Preliminary rounds for woodwinds are this Friday. I'm playing Weber II, mvt. I, and I know it well by now. That being said, I'm starting to flip a tit about it being so soon. I literally have no idea what my chances are. Hohhhhohohohoh...nerves.
I've been developing a closer relationship with God, and let me tell you, it's pretty sweet! There are some awesome people in the music major prayer group that I go to, who've helped me get better at praying and learning from the Bible, stuff like that...I've really got to thank Caryn, Faith, Steph, James, Hannah Murphy, and Hsueh-Ling Huang for being right there with me.
Remember how I was having trouble getting a certain someone off my mind? Well, I'm here to tell you...I've moved on.
It's like this: I'd rather let go of it and be open to new possibilities than hang on and be all weepy about it. Clearly, there's a reason it didn't work. All there is to it. Although, it goes without saying that I'll always care about her...it just isn't meant to be.
And along those lines, by some random chance...I seem to have happened upon a man :)
We met at work...his name's Joel. Out of nowhere, we started talking one day during the brunch shift. We ended up talking about typical things, music, movies, stuff we like, etc...at one point, he mentioned the new Tron movie, which I hadn't seen, and we suddenly had plans to watch it together. By the end of the shift he had my number, we hung out that weekend, and the rest was history :)
Well, more like we've hing out quite a bit since then, and I kind of really really like him and he likes me and yeah :)
Oh lawd...now I've gone and started using too many faces. Whoops :)
As Tori Ovel would say, that is the LAWD'S MESS. (Luh you gurl!)
People who've made my life a little brighter lately:
~Tori Ovel - My honeychild. The girl walks around bringin' happy wherever she goes. Whenever I see her, I did not expect it to be so soon :P
~Joel Steger - He walked into my life one day, and I hope he's here to stay for a while :)
~Toni Hoffmann and Faith Hall - Just look at their facebook walls. Instant cheer!
~The freshman clarinets - We took them to Heart of Darkness (a haunted complex) last Friday, then had some quality bonding time at VI. Hayhay, La-a, Molliesha, N-Lyfe, DeShawn, welcome to the family :]]
~Julie Seibert - I am SO glad we're hanging out more, woman. You are your own brand of craycray :D
~Kendra Secoy - Always boss, always herself. The world needs more Kendras, no question!!
~Isaak Sund - I feel like there isn't anything I can't tell you. As if it's not clear already...there's nothing we can't tackle together :)
Before I close... To Abbey and Stacia...as wierd and downward-sloping as things may seem sometimes, I'm trying my best to understand and be at peace. I love you both so much, and I want you to know I'll never give up. Ever.
