To Whom It May (or may not) Concern

I am at a loss for things to say.

I have been so up and down lately that I can't even function...Today I woke up and didn't feel like doing anything. Last night was so unbearably boring that I ended up sitting there and doing nothing for close to 5 hours. I literally felt no emotion. This morning, it was snowing, and when on a normal day I would be one excited little tit, I was mildly enthused for a while, then continued to be somewhat miserable.

I got back to my room about half an hour ago, and as soon as Alex left the room I started crying uncontrollably. What is this...

My motivation is gone - I tried to clean my room and gave up halfway through, I need to do laundry so badly that it's gotten to the point where I'm walking around in sweats all the time, I've completely lost my appetite...I can't even play my damn clarinet anymore. All I want to do is sleep.

I'm sorry, all I'm doing is complaining...but I'm tired of being able to think of nothing but my fear that I'll never be good enough, or that no matter how many friends I may be surrounded with, right now, I feel alone.

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