Tomorrow is Valentine's day, a day I dread. Every year, people make such a big deal out of it for whatever reason, and usually that reason is a person/persons. Nobody seems to realize that this holiday is the spawn of the corporate world, and often causes us shy people to hole up in our rooms the entire day, thinking of what could be but isn't.
Yes. As hard as this may be to believe, I am incredibly shy when it comes to having feelings for anyone. I will usually only admit my secret crushes if I really trust the person not to judge me, or if I'm inebriated. Otherwise, I'm terribly terribly afraid of being shot down or criticized, and above all, having my heart broken. I may have a confident exterior, and I usually am confident in many things...but when it comes to matters of the heart, truth be told, I'm incredibly nervous in every regard.
Wind Symphony and jazz band both had concerts this week, which were both totally killer. I mean, Jazz at The Hub is always awesome, but this time seemed particularly great because so many people were there and the energy was...well, it was spectacular.
THEN there was Wind Symphony.
It was great. That's all I have to say. Just great. If you didn't have goosebumps at the end of Make Our Garden Grow, you have no soul.
I'm getting another roommate, because Noehren Hall sucks and is making a huge deal out of it. FML.
I'm sorry, I'm just...things aren't good right now. I'm on my period, and I'm sick from A) CRAMPS and B) a cough/cold. Hate to complain this way, but right now it just seems like nothing is good and everything is going downhill. Even if things aren't that way, that's what I feel like right now. I don't want anyone to see me when I'm like this...I've somehow lost hope and faith in the world and I really want it back, but it's as if this hope and faith sits in a distant world from my own.
I know, I know...get over yourself, Mad. Stfu. Etc.
Right now, I don't care.
I'm sorry...
valentine's day is actually not the spawn of the corporate world, or greeting card companies, or whatever it is you want to believe. it dates back to roman times. people have been celebrating it for 2000 years. interesting, no?
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You know I'm always here for you love. Just text me if you need to talk. :)
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